Turn of Events

Hello faithful readers, so sorry for the lack of posts. Some of you have questioned as to when the next erotic encounter will happen........that makes two of us. Life has thrown a turn of events at me as of late and there has been no play, nor do I see any play occurring in my immediate future.

To begin with, I too feel like I have suffered a great loss - much like my fellow blogger 'sexy sadie'. My recent lover and I are no longer having sexual relations, although we are working to try and manage a friendship of sorts. This is entirely on my part and the need to focus energies elsewhere. In addition, L was wanting much more than the relationship we were having. While I am deeply touched and flattered, I cannot and will not hurt my husband to pursue or explore a relationship with him - even though he is quite the catch (successful, hot, stable, well-endowed, and very compassionate). None the less, I am very sad at the turn of events and do miss L terribly.

So in light of these recent events and the fact that I truly feel as though I am suffering a loss, I have removed myself from the lifestyle entirely at this time. I'm not sure what the future will hold, but for now there are more important things that require my focus - mainly my family.

Sunday Afternoon continued......

Savoring our moment of bliss and catching our breath, he tells me he isn't done with me yet. "Get up on your knees babe" is all he said and I eagerly obliged. Seconds later, I feel his thick, long hardness entering into me from behind. I eagerly begin to rock back and forth on his warmth very slowly, feeling my wetness intensify. I, personally love this position and from his reaction believe he equally enjoys it as well.

My naughty friend then decides to take some of his own pics of our play time together, mmmmmmmm. Something he can view later I'm sure. He again fills me with his seed before indicating that he had to get home from his trip to get things ready for work the next day. We both get dressed, not taking care to wash any of the sexual exchange that just occurred. I personally enjoy leaving his seed in me to then feel the wetness in my panties moments later. We spent another five or ten minutes just kissing, hugging and talking a bit before I walked him to his car.

While this is one of our shorter visits together, the time is still very arousing, sexual and sweet and I understand the draining weekend he has had. We kiss and part ways as always.......until the next time. The sexual experience is genuinely better when you can share a friendship and communication other than simply fucking a partner.

Sunday Afternoon

He called me on the telephone only to say he was pulling down my driveway. Immediately my mind began to race with the anticipation of feeling him close, my lips on his lips. The weekend has been less than easy for him as he returns from a trip and a funeral of a loved one. He needs to connect and feel some passion and perhaps release some tension.

I quietly ask him to come into my home to spend some alone time to which he agrees. He excuses himself to use the restroom only to find me waiting when he comes out. We embrace and kiss looking into each others eyes with longing desire. He immediately slides his hand up my skirt only to find there are no panties. I swing the bedroom door closed with my foot and the excitement builds. As we continue to kiss, we only remove part of our clothes as there is no time to waste. My lover immediately lays be back on my bed and begins to lick my wet kitty with long, slow strokes of his tongue. My excitement continues to build until he looks me in the eyes before sliding his hard cock into me with one smooth movement, which takes my breath away and has be lifting to meet him on every stroke. Looking into his eyes he pulls back a bit and just teases me with the head of his cock, until I beg him to let me have all of him. Again - full penetration sends us both over the edge while looking directly into each others eyes and kissing very tenderly.

Wish these moments could last forever........

Fill In Friday

1. One week ago it was raining like mad, now the sun is back and I'm loving it.
2. When I was young I would have never dreamt that I would have a loving husband and black lover on the side.
3. Mama told me I've become a beautiful woman inside and out and she is very proud of who I am.
4. You and me can overcome anything together.
5. Take your time, I'm not going anywhere.
6. Hard times will pass.
7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to a quiet evening at home, tomorrow my plans include visiting a family friend and grocery shopping, and Sunday, I want to enjoy the nice weather before it fades to cooler days.

You know you want to play Fill in Fridays!

How Close is Too Close?

I have to admit, I have not had the pleasure of keeping company to my friend 'L' lately. Work and real life have a tendency to get in the way at times, damn it. We do text and talk frequently and have continued getting to know one another on an intellectual level as well as some erotic picture exchange. It's all good to keep the fires burning when time doesn't permit that connection.

I am very surprised on how the relationship is progressing....and have been struggling a bit to keep the balance at home. I'm sure my other fellow blogger's in the lifestyle can relate. L is pushing for some one-on-one time and hubby is not comfortable (for lack of a better word) with me going off to be alone. Our balance all along is that my husband is involved in some way, whether it is through video, pictures, visually watching foreplay, etc. I'm sure this is in part the reason for his reluctance for condoning the along time. In addition, I get the feeling that he is also attempting to control how close or connected my friend and I become. I find this interesting as all along my husband and I have discussed me having a lover, rather than just a 'fuck buddy' and he was rather encouraging that I should try to find someone like this as of course the sex would be more fulfilling and because I prefer focusing on one friend at a time. As this particular relationship is progressing, I get the feeling he feels threatened in some way or feels that perhaps he is not in control of the situation.

My question goes out to those of you that have similar experiences. What boundaries have you established and is it a matter of the husband retaining complete control over the situation that keeps the comfort level in place? I would like to hear both male and female perspectives on this topic. Don't get me wrong, of course the arousal of the interracial relationship is there for both of us and I do enjoy having an intellectual and perhaps even slightly emotional bond with my new partner. I have made it clear to 'L' that my place is with my husband and nothing will change that and he has acknowledged that he is aware of the 'package deal' (hubby is in the vicinity, but does not participate); however still would like to have some alone time with me. He has indicated he feels like he cannot completely be himself with me in such a controlled environment. I would also be interested in hearing from the 'lover' perspective that engages in this type of relationship with a married couple. Do you feel that you can be yourself or do you feel restricted with your partner's spouse close by?

Hopefully I will have some intimate recount to share with you very soon, in the meantime just pondering - how close is too close?

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Continued Enjoyment

I have to say that I am absolutely loving the friendship that I am building with my newest friend, let's call him 'L'. L came over last Friday afternoon early in the day, very nice - I get to spend some extra time. Fortunately for me, my son had a football game and my daughter was at the neighbors for several hours. Having this bit of extra freedom we all sat out in the barn area while my husband was doing some wood working, I took a seat on my L's lap dressed in a mini skirt and tank top - no panties btw. We did some touching, kissing, a bit of grinding and when I stood to go and get some water L very smoothly slipped his hand up the backside of my skirt and played with my kitty while I stood in front of him. He is also warming up very nicely as he did some nibbling on my breasts (through my tank top).

It wasn't long before I brought him in the house to play and what fun we did have. I love undressing him and giving his cock some extra attention to get things started. I started by kissing him tenderly on the mouth and worked my way down his chest while stroking on his BBC. It simply looked too good not to wrap my lips around it as well, Mmmmmmm. Much to my delight we switched positions shortly and he kissed and licked my kitty as it warmed up for him to give me that BBC, which I certainly asked for by telling him how much I wanted to feel him.

This time around was missionary style the entire time, but the stroke was nice and slow with deep grinding motions as he made sure that he was fully in me. Damn he feels so good and my arousal went through the roof each time he told me he was cumming. Yes - this means it was more than once. When finished, I rested my head on his chest for a bit as we cuddled and relished in the delight at that moment. I then kissed him very tenderly for a few more moments before we dressed to rejoin my husband outside. I would say that he is becoming more comfortable as I see a bit more aggression each time we have the opportunity to play. Damn, I cannot wait until the next time........

Round II

My very fine new friend came to visit me again on a Saturday evening not so long ago. I greeted him affectionately with a hug and kiss and then the three of us (hubby, friend, myself) hung out for awhile, I made dinner, and then we listened to music and held hands for a short while. When we came in the house I took my place next to my friend on the love seat as he rubbed up my leg to that warm wet spot between my legs. He then leaned in and indicated he was more than ready to take things into the other room.

We proceeded with me kissing, undressing him and having him lay back so I can play, lick and suck his BBC to help him relax and for my own enjoyment of course. Moments later he entered my hot, wet pussy and fucked me slow and strong for quite some time. He then rolled over and positioned me on top of him allowing me to control the pace, depth, and motion. Very erotic, I love being able to do exactly what I want. My friend is very well built from top to bottom and has an incredibly soft touch, yet the strength behind it to get exactly what he wants. The short amount of time together was incredible! I don't know how anyone could not love and desire BBC, lol.

I would absolutely love the opportunity to have him alone for a day, unrestrained, no interruptions, and the freedom to kiss, fuck and cuddle all day long. I have a feeling he would unleash some of those desires with even more force.

That "Wow" Connection

I am a lucky woman, my newest friend came to visit me on Saturday evening. I have to admit, I have a deep desire for this man - you know the whole butterflies in the stomach, aching to be intimate feeling. I have finally met a friend that I feel that connection with. The sad thing is - the moments come and go way to quickly. Hopefully that will change - both of us have busy lives right now, so steeling the moments to relax, play and cuddle make it extra special.

I haven't discussed it much before, however since I began living this lifestyle many of the encounters that I had were very empty. In the beginning, my husband was much more the advocate for such behavior than I was. It took me awhile to come around, however I have always been open to new ideas. What I have come to realize is that when I had sex simply to please my husband (by watching, videoing, etc) the encounter was mediocre or less than that. I would guess we started entertaining the lifestyle about 6 years ago - and this will make only my 2nd 'wow' experience. It truly makes a difference when you make a good connection and have that desire to be with the person. Admittedly there have been a couple others that the sex was good - however it wasn't great.

Geez, I'm getting all philosophical here - my point is if you choose to experiment with the lifestyle and want the experience to be incredible - select only those that you are really drawn to and the rest will be icing on the cake. I believe fellow bloggers would have to agree, we get signals that the experience isn't going to be great - so why do we bother putting ourselves through the motions? Yes - I know it is for the sex, but when all is said and done we kick ourselves in the ass for not passing that one by.

Anyhoo - Happy Tuesday and I hope you all find that 'WOW' connection that facilitates incredible sex.

Birthday Present?

I got a nice surprise after all. My new friend returned on Friday night (the day before my birthday), and we (friend/hubby/myself) listened to music out in the yard and talked most of the night away. We did manage to kiss and touch on occasion and it was very exciting - I haven't put my finger on it yet, but this new friend definitely excites me more than any of the others I have had. He is very gentle in touch, yet strong, confident, well mannered- smart.......okay I don't need to go on, you get the picture.

Any way.....after the kids went to bed around 11pm we continued to listen to music and then finally came in the house to chat a bit, hold hands, etc. We (all three of us) determined he should stay as by now it was around 2 a.m. I asked him if he would like to join me in the bedroom to get better acquainted and he accepted! Yes - now that it is after midnight, it is officially my birthday and I did get that present I was hoping for. Although he was extremely nervous, things went well once the ball was rolling. Conversation has been great since then and I expect that next time, things will be even better.

Happy Birthday to me!

Still Kicking!

Hello Everyone, I know it's been a while but I thought I would take a moment to say hello. I have found and am implementing the changes I want to see in my life and feel great about that.

I met a new friend yesterday evening - and OMG is he fucking hot! We have emailed and talked a bit on the phone for quite sometime and finally agreed to meet face-to-face. The three of us (hubby, new friend and myself) talked for about 2 hours before he had to leave. No - of course I didn't jump him first thing y'all. He is very sexy, tall, well built and well mannered. I am looking forward to developing a friendship that leads to lots of benefits with him. He is new to this scene, so I don't want to scare him off by jumping him before he's ready, lol.

However, my birthday is coming up on Saturday and this would be an excellent present for me! We did share a kiss before he left and mmmmmmmmm, I can't wait for more. Very soft and sexy indeed.

I have decided that the changes I need to make are with myself. Outlook on life - need to focus more on good things and things that bring pleasure to life and my family. Overall health and physical strengths.

No, I am not giving up the other lifestyle entirely as that brings pleasure to hubby and myself.

I will continue to share any fun that I have and perhaps share some general thoughts as well. My first thought is that I need to start eating healthier and exercising. Much of my day is spent on my ass in front of a computer - because of work and school. I can honestly say - I don't spend a significant amount of time on this site or any others but try to check in for 5 or 10 minutes when I can.

Thanks for letting me bend your ear.

Change

I woke up this week needing change in my life. Until I figure out what that change entails, I have removed my older posts. For those that followed, I apologize and hope you aren't too disappointed.