I have decided that the changes I need to make are with myself. Outlook on life - need to focus more on good things and things that bring pleasure to life and my family. Overall health and physical strengths.
No, I am not giving up the other lifestyle entirely as that brings pleasure to hubby and myself.
I will continue to share any fun that I have and perhaps share some general thoughts as well. My first thought is that I need to start eating healthier and exercising. Much of my day is spent on my ass in front of a computer - because of work and school. I can honestly say - I don't spend a significant amount of time on this site or any others but try to check in for 5 or 10 minutes when I can.
Thanks for letting me bend your ear.